A day with the boy.

The boy and I had a great day today! Spent the rest of the afternoon once I got off of school hanging out with E and chit chatting. It's nice to catch up with him... We don't get nearly enough time together now-a-days. I love that we work so well together. Today him and I got into this little bitch fit fight and it took about 3 minutes to look at each other and decide it was retarded to fight. We hugged each other and were back to laughing in a matter of seconds. Him and I....We make a pretty darn good team if I do say so myself. I love him. I'm super excited to say that I'm engaged to a handsome man that loves me, and treats me with respect...Which is more than I can say about A2. So for everybody that is reading! This is the boy and I with E at a local concert in our town.






On another note- E has a yeast infection, she's been super sick and just not feeling well the past couple of days. Last night was the first night in about 2 weeks that she's slept through the night without waking up. Unfortunately it was also the night that I couldn't sleep!! Oh well. It happens. Seems like she's down for good tonight...fingers crossed folks!

M is being difficult again. She's constantly fighting with me over little things. Like working part time...uhh like 8 hours a week is going to overwhelm me? and tell me again who the fuck you think you are... But I digress.

My dad is doing really well. He made it home safely and is about to head back out for work. He's going back to northern California for business. I'm trying to figure out how to keep in contact with him consistently..Since him and I are always on the go, it makes it a little bit harder for us to stay consistent.

Found out that my rapist will be serving the rest of his sentence since he broke parole. This is such good news!!!! I was jumping for joy! D-bag deserves it. He was so manipulative and so physically aggressive I wake up punching the boy because I'm traumatized that it's going to be him laying the same bed as me instead of my man.

I'm proud to say that my little lady is officially taking steps! She'll be walking in no time at all! She's growing so stinking fast! I love her!

Well crap. E is awake. I must go and tend to my motherly duties.

Goodnight World!

Long time no talk.

Hello World.

Today is a post of ranting epicness. I'm having a rough day. It's been way to long..I've missed talking to you guys. I guess some of the stuff I'm dealing with is medicating now that I've found out that i'm bi-polar. They had me on Lamictal for a mood stabilizer and Zoloft for an anti-depressant. The Lamictal caused an allergic reaction causing a rash to develop all over my body :O it was terrible. The Zoloft wouldn't be much of a problem except it seems to make my depression worse... I'm waiting to meet with the Dr. again on the 23'd to get myself on a different mood stabilizer, because the Zoloft by itself is...troubling.. I'm glad I have someone here to watch for warning signs... It's been a rough couple of weeks.

On the bright side...I got ahold of my dad whom I haven't spoken to in 9 years and he came up from California to come see me for my birthday this month! It was a fantastic visit!

Anyways- I'm going to school @ the local cosmetology college. It's been stressful trying to go to school 40 hrs a week and pay bills plus be a full time mom. Life gets overwhelming easily... The amount of school work I have brings me back to my senior year in high school when I took 12 classes a day from 6:00 AM to 5:30 PM and then took 3 online classes @ home once I was done. I literally spent all of my time doing homework..

Oh well world. Back to work. :)

Well dang it.

I'm terrible! It's official. I haven't had the time to blog lately. It just seems like my life has been uprooted and E and I are floating around trying to find time to get stuff done together. Work has been wonderful- I've been in first booth almost every shift I've worked since they first stuck me back there. I was nervous about not catching on but that went out the window. I've gotten to the point now that I can open, close, and run ALMOST every position in the store. I'm so blessed to be able to say I have the job that I do. I love it.

E is 9 months old now! She's heavy as a horse and crawling around like a jumping bean on 8 shots of espresso! Oh how fun it is though! I love that when I make my way into the kitchen to get food started for us she will crawl in there and sit to just hang out with me. She's such a little angel. I've never seen a 9 month old as calm as her. She has her moments, don't get me wrong, but for the most part...she's really chill. She's started her speaking stage.. The other morning I woke up to "Mum....MUM" coming from her crib! She just called me until I came in there to pick her up! Such a rewarding thing, babies calling you by your name!

Figured you guys needed to see another picture of her as she's growing up! I'm in love! This little girl has my heart, and I know for a fact it will never change.

R&H- the twins that I work with at the golden arches are doing well. R has officially transferred to the other store :( I'm not pleased about this at all! Saturday was his last day working with me.. At least I still have H though!

M has been having a rough couple of weeks... She just had a miscarriage that has been extremely hard on her physcially and emotionally. I've spent a lot of time over there in the last few days just helping out making sure that I can do my part to make her life a little easier. On the other hand E2 has been doing wonderfully! He turned 1 in July and is walking about all the time now! He still doesn't have teeth though!!! ugh!

A2 has been fighting with me off and on as well.. it's been nuts trying to find a peaceful balance with him. He's always got something to fight about or something to say. It's just like... dude cool your jets! I know that you're frustrated with the situation.. so am I! Custody takes its tole on everyone. Oh well- nothing i can do or say to make it easier...

Anywho's

I have to jump off and get ready for work! Pack that little girls diaper bag while I'm at it too. Grammie and E are having a girls day!

Swimming Extravaganza!

Today E went swimming for the first time with her uncle E2 and some ladies from church! We had such a great time! She loved it! We will be going back tomorrow to swim some more! So I will make sure to get pictures and share them with you-Oh beautiful blogging world!

I woke up this morning feeling really awful, not sure if it's allergies or i'm coming down with something, either way, I have been miserable. Needless to say, a day off of work was seriously needed. I'm so thankful I have tomorrow off to recuperate! This week is looking busy so far, Monday will be my only day off this week, so I hope that E will get some sleep so that I can too! She's been up a lot in the middle of the night lately, I'm not sure what's going on with her...She's been sleeping through the night since she was 2 months old! (Lucky right?) And now all of a sudden, she's having a hard time sleeping. Oh well, I guess it happens. I'm sure it's because of her cold.

A is spending the night with me over at my house so that mom and dad can have their anniversary night in peace. They get a free breakfast with the hotel package, and a room that opens into the pool! (Hence going swimming!)  I'm looking forward to hanging out with A in the morning, we don't get to spend a whole lot of time together anymore. He's such a good little brother, always taking time to help out and be there for E1 and E2. I'm thankful to say he's my little brother, he's something to be proud of. He has great grades, is so smart, and has the biggest heart I've ever seen! I love that kid! I remember when he was so little! Now he's 11 and I find myself wondering where all of the time went!

This is a picture of A holding E for the very first time! That's me, hanging out in the background on my comfy hospital bed! Not going to lie- I seriously miss that thing! So comfy!

Anyways- I'm exhasted blogging world. I'm heading to my sweet pillow to crash for the night! I love you all!

So exhausted

E has come down with a cold :( it makes it extraordinarily hard to get the much needed rest in. I feel bad for her, poor thing is stuffy and running a slight fever. You can tell she hasn't been feeling well, she's grumpy, and tired, and over stimulated. This is cause for a very tired mamma. And to top it all off, I worked a double shift today and have to be up early in the morning. UGH. oh well though, life as a single mother I guess. I'm glad that I get to do it, and love all of the experiences, sometimes though, I wish I had somebody to help out so I could rest and rebound.

Today I ran first booth :O it was ridiculous! I had the hardest time counting change and taking orders at the same time. It's like my brain can't do math and English, plus add on memory. So let's just leave it at, it's impossibly hard to be back there. A new found respect for all the people running drive thru's now!

I ended giving me a ride home after my second shift tonight, turns out she'll be moving to Seattle :( I'm sad, I really like her and thought i'd be able to establish a better friendship but looks like time is short now. I want to just take a moment to say that I want the luxury of just moving somewhere new. Taking a vacation to who knows where and be away from all the hustle and bustle that is my life!

I think I sound whiny. Not to say that I'm more tired than others- I know people are working their tails off and have it worse than me, but dang! I'm just looking for a couple hour nap. Not a whole lot to ask for. Anyways, I'd miss my family too much if I decided to go on a vacation. I like my little town, it's happy, and everybody seems to know everybody somehow.

The neighbors are mvoing out! Thank goodness! I'm really glad! They are super noisy most of the time and since they'll be gone it won't be such a big deal when E is trying to get down to bed! UGH. It always seems to work out that way too! Its like a waiter who waits until you take a bite and then asks how the food is! Oh well.

Tonight is over than goodness! Headed to be to catch some much needed  ZZzzzz's won't be long before E is up and better get what little sleep I can before she wakes up. Speak of the devil.

She's up!
Goodnight World

WOOHOO! I'm back!

Blogging world- oh how I've missed you!

Sorry to everyone that does look at this blog! it's been a while since my last post because I haven't had internet! I have so much to fill you guys up on!

First off! E turned 6 months yesterday! how crazy is that! It seems like just yesterday I delivered her and now here she is learning to roll from her tummy to her back! Such a proud momma! Today was the first time anyone has caught her rolling! We layed her down on the floor at Grammie's house and next thing we know she had rolled over onto her back! I'm so excited about it! This is a day to remember!

 E goes in for her third round of shots here soon so keep her in your thoughts! I'm hoping that they all go well, it's been rough the last couple of times! I just hate to see her upset, I've figured out that I'm doomed to be a pushover parent! She cries when she's about to be put down for bed and it just breaks my heart, I know the only reason she does is because she doesn't want to go to sleep. I've let her cry for a little while, but after a couple minutes my heart just hurts so I get her up and rock her to sleep. Once she's asleep she is out. She's been sleeping like a champ since she was 2 1/2 months old! I'm so glad to have a little angel like her!

Tomorrow I work at six in the morning, looks like i've gotten a promotion at McDonalds after a month of work! You are officially talking to the new opener! I'm working consistant hours and it's a gauranteed 32 hours or more! I'll be running first booth (the first window in drive thru) which is crazy fast! Hopefully I learn as quickly as I have with everything else! I fly solo on Wednesday! AHH! Wish me luck! It's a blessing to say the least!

A2 came out for a bit today, the visit went decent enough. I try to keep it cordial, and just wing it. Although a lot of the time we just hold equal levels of frustration for eachother and can't ever seem to agree on things. I'm just hoping that he will come around more frequently. It seems like E remembers him, but doesn't really get that he's supposed to be there as much as me. Then again- she's 6 months old...

I digress.

I'm officially moved into the new house (as evidence of the internet)! I finished unpacking and getting things set up nicely! It's homey, a lot better than the old one. E seems to sleep better here than the last house too. Not certain why... I'm just glad that everything seems to be going well! We're happy and that's the best that I can ask for!

On a side note! This is E and I! We have waaayy too much fun!

Good night dear world!
Until next time!

Lack of interenet

I haven't posted in a couple of days- I've been busy moving houses and have absolutely no internet! I'm over at the parents house so that I can check my email and post a new blog! I have work in just a bit, so this might be a quick post!

That being said! E is doing great! She's been feeling better, her hernia is much smaller and it looks like she won't have to have surgery after all. She's working on learning to roll! How exciting! Her uncle E2 is learning to crawl! Together they're trouble! Soon they'll be walking and talking and i'm not sure i'm ready for that sort of craziness! Oh well! It's happening one way or another!

Well- for now until internet exists!
bye!